Well, it has been a while since I posted. And also awhile since I have run. Work has simply consumed me since my last bad 20 miler. In fact, I didn't run for 10 days. I started a trial on October 12 and essentially worked around the clock for the week. And I didn't eat. A lack of sleep and food are not conducive to running, and coupled with the stress of a trial, forget it. Then, Friday night, after the trial was done..baby got sick again. So, I was up all night Friday night also. I think I slept a total of about 20 hours from Saturday to Saturday. On the plus side, the scale had me down to 176. Yikes...that is a loss of about 5 or 6 pounds in two weeks. Mostly water I know, but I also know it was lack of food too. (During trial, I get very tight and have no appetite.)
With the marathon coming up in two weeks I know I have to carbo load, not carbo deplete. So over the last several days, I have been eating like crazy. I am back on the road traveling this week, and finally ran in my hotel yesterday and today. My heart rate, though, was pretty high. Maybe it was the remnant of alcohol in me. Maybe my lack of training for last month or so. Maybe some of both. But not exactly a sign of strength heading into the big day. Oh well, I may have to adjust my time goal, and not push it for sure. After all, I have been working at this for 6 months. I am not injured (knock on wood) and should be tapering anyway. but the ten day holiday really made me lose my edge, that tightness in my legs, my body. I ran a fast 8 miles yesterday, just to do it. To prove to myself I could still push and do it. And my heart rate was high. Today I was sore, but ran a recovery run too (with another too high heart rate for the pace).
I know I am in taper mode. But I want to feel that "coiled spring" feeling inside me and be ready to go. I didn't feel it all all until today really. When I went for my run, I wanted to just jump on the treadmill and gooooooo. Before, rather than restless from the taper, I felt soft.
I still have 10 days to get in right mental mode. I am tough (I think) and will force myself there. But its not how I had it drawn up.
Note: I post these notes late at night, and can never get logger to spellcheck. Any secret tricks?