“But until a person can say deeply and honestly, "I am what I am today because of the choices I made yesterday," that person cannot say, "I choose otherwise.”
― Stephen R. Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Powerful Lessons in Personal Change
Well, it is holiday time. After a long break injury induced, but inertia prolonged, I went for a first run yesterday. For constant runners, they may not have that fear of starting back up again. For me I know it is harder, and well, a choice I have to make. I was sitting on my couch, watching a bad Jets game and I thought, you know, there are a thousand excuses for me not to run right now. It was cold, misty, and when you haven't run in a while, why start now?
Short answer: because I am not going to get back into with a magic thunderbolt. I am not going to wake up one morning, thinner, back at race weight, race condition, ready to go. That is the product of a lot of work. And no time like the present to get there. As I have previously said, I miss that feeling. It is power, confidence, something, to know that I can jump out of bed, knock out 6 or 9 miles at a good pace, and feel...good. I miss that.
This fall has been a real struggle. Work has been all consuming. And stressful. The weather has not cooperated. But Saturday, as I woke up, I looked out my window and saw someone jogging by. I didn't feel so good, and certainly was not in any place to go running. And when I saw the guy go flying by, I thought, wow I wish that was me. And it dawned on me that the reason it wasn't me was because I wasn't trying to be that guy. It is all about choices, and I have been making different choices.
So I resolved to go run on Sunday, no excuses, and no expectations. Just do it. My Garmin was dead. My iPod was dead. It was a rainy day. It was cold. I knew it was going to suck. But really, why not? Choices, make them.