Well, after my resolution of July 12 or so, I ran for about a week and ended up not getting back into it. A trip to drop off Daughter at camp, a weekend at the beach, a couple of work obligations and VOOOM, "NY Wolve's Get Fit Summer 2010!" was off. I really struggle with motivation sometimes, and, well, I just couldn't sustain it.
Ironically, though, the plan is back on. I have more or less decided NY Marathon is out for this year. I will defer until next year. And that decision has allowed me to take a longer view about weight loss and getting back into shape. No more gun to my head to be ready to run 26.2 on November 7. Instead, I can diet, build a base, work on form and not over doing it and take the long view. Yes, it will be difficult not to be there on November 7. But sometimes, discretion is the better part of valor.
One thing that really, really made me miss running and want to be back in shape was returning to Asheville, NC. My daughter goes to camp outside of Asheville, and we have gone down there the last three years for drop off. Asheville is a beautiful town, and a really funky vibe also; sort of like Austin, TX. At any rate last year, I was in good shape and training for the NY marathon. I ran 18.4 miles at a 8:28 pace. (I wrote more about Asheville and my run here.) Returning to Asheville, I could no more have run 18 miles than jump over the moon. And I missed that feeling. I missed that feeling of "Hey, I could really do something here. I can run these hills." I missed the feeling of confidence and accomplishment that I had last year.
So all of that means...back on track for Austin 2011. First goal, for next 3 months is lose weight and build up the base. I can make to go/no-go decision on Austin in October after a couple of months are under my belt. But I feel good about it. It gives me time and a longer horizon to view things.
By the way, Running Times had an excellent piece on why people fixate on marathons. I strongly recommend it, and many of the things the author said -- positive and negative -- could not be more true in my case. A marathon mentally captures you, both with excitement and dread, and has a tendency to become a preoccupation through which all other decisions -- workout, eating, sleeping, etc., are viewed. I can't find a link to it, but heartily recommend it for anyone contemplating running a marathon.
In closing my on again/off again training is not unusual for me. Nor are my crazy weight swings unusual (unhealthy yes, unusual, no). But this time, this time, I am going to make it work. I can feel it.